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𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚛𝚘𝚐𝚎𝚛𝚜 ([personal profile] pursuitofcappiness) wrote2019-05-05 12:34 pm
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unsever: (julia88)

[personal profile] unsever 2020-02-06 10:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Yeah... That had been a new level of horrific. She almost asks how it worked out for him, but that suddenly felt far more personal than she was ready to get. Especially if he didn't make it off the ship. ]

You too. Felt weird to be away from this place for two months.

[ She'd missed it. Which felt wrong. But, it had thrown her off to not remember her life again - living a lie. Part of her wonders if Rapture would have been easier to deal with if she hadn't been herself again. Probably not.

Picking off a piece of the cheese danish, she smiles - a lift to her eyebrows at his job title. They haven't exactly had a chance for her to confess just how much she actually knows about him, how much of it is true... But, if he's happy with working at the High School, that's all that matters. This place gave her a chance at trying to find some normalcy when circumstances at home were out of her control. Her job had been a saving grace when she was powerless. It gave her something to do to help people. She wasn't going to judge anyone else for what they did in between the shitstorms around here, Superhero, Former Goddess, Magician, or whatever. Before she can stop herself -- ]


Well, now that you know I'm there, maybe you'll come visit me the next time you need something. Or if you just want to stop by and chat.

[ Not the boldest thing she could say, but it's out there. Popping the danish bite into her mouth, she doesn't hold back the small sound of happiness at the flavors. She might have to make a point to stop here more often for more than just coffee. ]

Good call on getting both danishes. [ Because she's coming for the cherry one next. ]
unsever: (julia46)

[personal profile] unsever 2020-02-09 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
[ She'd gotten a spot on one of the last boats or more accurately, had been shoved onto one of the last boats after spending too much time running around trying to help other people. The guilt of taking the spot stuck with her, part of her wishing she hadn't had to witness it going down.

Just something else to add to the vault of things to keep her up at night, honestly.

And then as suddenly as she feels like she can see the Captain peeking through, he slips back into Steve and her lips curve up into a smirk, easily falling into the playful banter - grateful for transition once again towards something lighter than where this all could have gone. She understood protectiveness through and through, appreciated the words - but she was in a better position to take care of herself now than she was two months ago. But, there were still some things that having some help would be great for... She didn't want to only reach out to him for shit like that, though. Just have some fun and keep things casual - keep it from suddenly changing the dynamic between them. ]


It'll certainly be easier to see you without having to peek around corners or listen for certain voices. [ The stakes are just so much lower now. It wasn't a big deal anymore if someone saw them together and jumped to conclusions because she didn't care what other people thought of her. She leans in, acting like she's sharing a secret. ]

The whole thing was a little thrilling, though. [ An adrenaline rush without it being life or death. A nice change of pace. ]
unsever: (julia92)

[personal profile] unsever 2020-02-11 04:17 am (UTC)(link)
[ The stakes had been incredibly high and they all came crashing down around her in a very horrible way that had left her reeling. And then she'd snapped out of it all and the ship had quickly followed suit. Literally. Julia wasn't mad about the romantic air their first exchange had taken on, even if she'd only imagined it. It felt electric and captivating and she'd wanted a chance to try again without the illusion of status standing in the way. Even if nothing comes from this coffee meeting, she was done with missed opportunities - part of her new resolution after losing Q back home... She was taking control of her life again.

And that was going to happen here, too. Julia was going to take the proverbial bull by the horns and see what happened.

The nostalgic suggestion has her previously conspiratorial smirk softening. ]


We could also write letters. In case the pebbles don't work. The windows to my bedroom may be a little hard to reach. The room in the attic had the most space for a growing book collection. [ Not impossible for the most determined, but her room had its downsides for late night romantic moments. Besides, she liked the tactile idea of letters, having something tangible to collect soothed the book lover in her. ]

As for the accent-- [ A highly inappropriate comment almost slips out, one that might've made a few of her friends proud. Instead, she shakes her head - taking a sip of her coffee before finding a different direction for her response. It's gentle, easily picking on the joke. ] I'll leave that up to you.
unsever: (julia62)

[personal profile] unsever 2020-02-13 05:14 am (UTC)(link)
[ One day she'll send him the crab with knife gif reaction in honor of Fen, but it'll have to be just the right moment. Her head cants to the side for a moment, thinking about the other Julia she'd been so sure was real. ]

It was like pieces of my life had been blown up to outrageous levels. Although, I have a hard time believing that my mother wouldn't have been too different from what I remembered when we were on the ship if she'd been alive in that time period. [ The woman wasn't a saint and while Julia had lived a privileged life, it had come with a personal cost. Her mom had just been elected to the board of the Met when she'd gotten in trouble with Marina, with the hedges. Having to lie so she wouldn't have to explain magic to her family. It was easier to hide away a problem in a rehab facility in the name of protecting a reputation.

But then, any tension she might've had at the thought of her family melts away as he starts to guess on her favorite books. Offering a hum of approval, she lets her gaze drop to her cup before lifting it again to meet his. ]


Historical anything, honestly. I'm a sucker for dead languages. [ She'd accepted that about herself awhile ago. And once she'd found out what her discipline was, it all made sense. ] Serial mysteries, high fantasy -- anything that involved world-building. It used to be an escape for my best friend and I at home - Quentin. [ She can't remember if she'd mentioned the name when she'd basically broken into his room on the ship, ready to expand on Q further if he asks. But what she was saying now was true. It had been the healthiest coping mechanism for both of them. She just grew out of it a lot faster than Q.

Giving a soft laugh, she almost feels ridiculous sharing any of this with someone who was still basically a stranger to her... But-- ]
We both had shitty home lives and books... We'd re-create places from the stories in my backyard, running around pretending we were the Chatwins from this one book series, Fillory and Further. Fighting The Watcher Woman or sneaking past Trolls or stealing a pirate ship to go to the Secret Sea.

[ And it had been an incredible fantasy story until it wasn't. Until it was very real and very dangerous and heartbreaking. Not ready to go down that road, wanting to enjoy the little bit of blissful nostalgia - she lets her brows draw in curiosity. She wanted to learn more about him, the real him and not what was portrayed on the screen or in comic books. ] Any favorite books or authors for you?
unsever: (pic#13160624)

[personal profile] unsever 2020-02-16 05:33 am (UTC)(link)
[ She hadn't been sure what to expect, but it wasn't for him to say Tolkien. Julia finds herself stunned in the best way. This is why she'd wanted to sit down and talk. Just talk like they weren't a superhero and a former goddess meeting up for coffee. And then he's talking about the linguistics behind it all and she's pretty sure if she hadn't been crushing on him before, she was now.

She really should just have 'talk nerdy to me' stamped on her forehead. ]


The imagery in his books can be really beautiful. [ Sometimes more than she'd wanted. But, it all tied together and the attention to detail was insane. Enviable, really, if she'd ever had any aspirations to become an author. ] And sometimes that's all it takes. I'm glad he created that world so he could share it all with us.

[ As for the Fillory books... ]

They're not, but I have a copy of the set from home that you're more than welcome to borrow. Turned out that Fillory is a real place and -- [ She shakes her head, not wanting to ruin the moment by mentioning that Plover wasn't as noble as Tolkien in his intentions with sharing this alternate universe with the world. ] It's complicated, but the books lived up to what we'd dreamed of the first time we set foot there.

[ Everything else fell under the category of 'never meet your heroes'. ] The reality of it all was just a bit darker than we'd expected.
unsever: (easystreet-magicians5x4-279)

[personal profile] unsever 2020-02-24 04:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ And if someone from Middle Earth does show up here... she'll make sure, if she sees them first, to text Steve and tell him. Especially with that look he just gave her. It's endearing and encourages her to live in the nostalgic whimsy for a moment longer. ]

Yeah, it was really magical for the first few moments.

[ And then Umber had removed the patch and she'd kind of gone off the deep end. But, that wasn't a conversation for right now.

She smiles softly, sucking on her lower lip out of habit as she thinks it over. ]


I think there are some truths better left unsaid until everyone's ready. And some that are unavoidable. [ She knew there were kids here and as much as she'd like to be able to find a way to shield them from the horrors, protecting them from the truth wasn't going to stop the horrors from finding them. This place was different, though. It was darker and preyed on weakness like a three-course meal. ]

If there is, it probably won't be that easy to find. Some of the books are pretty garbled so if we were to come across it in the Library, I don't know that we'd recognize it right away.

[ It's more of a royal 'we', not that she'd turn down book hunting with Steve. She's been scouring plenty on her own, though. Slowly. Trying to build a personal catalog of the books with notes for the ones that are more garbled than others. ]
unsever: (julia46)

[personal profile] unsever 2020-03-07 01:43 am (UTC)(link)
[ She doesn't know him, the real him, well enough to dispute what he says about himself. Just taking a sip of her coffee as she watches him over the rim of her cup.

She wasn't quite as much of a social butterfly as Q, doubtful that she'd met whoever Steve was talking about, especially if it was someone from Steve's life at home. ]


That'd be nice, to have another set of eyes or at least another opinion. If you can send me his contact information or give him my name, I'd appreciate it.

[ She'd heard rumors about F.E.A.R. and knew if she did some digging, she'd probably hit a wealth of resources she had no idea about. But, there was also a commitment with F.E.A.R. and risks if things go wrong that she might not be ready for. Not so soon after her encounter with Sodder's Subconscious in Rapture.

Putting down the cup, she props an elbow on the table - resting her chin on her hand. ]


It'd be nice if this was something we didn't have to worry about.
unsever: (easystreet-magicians5x1-164)

[personal profile] unsever 2020-03-09 03:19 am (UTC)(link)
[ Her device pings from her purse, confirmation that she definitely got it. ]

Perfect, I'll reach out to him and see what we can brainstorm.

[ It wasn't her first time basically cold-calling someone because she was given a name and was pointed in a direction. She sighs, a bittersweet emotion washing over her at the idea of home. Home didn't have her best friend. Home had a string of its own messes, including them figuring out how the fuck to move the moon. Breaking off another piece of pastry, she pops it into her mouth and chews for a moment - debating how to respond. ]

It came up while we were in Rapture, a discussion for people to have the option to stay if they wanted. Once everything is fixed and we're given a choice in the matter. Being here is kind of a blessing of its own. I get to spend time with someone I'll never get to see again once I go home for good.

[ It feels like a big confession, almost a little worried she might scare him off with showing a little more vulnerability than she'd planned over coffee. But, it really felt like it was just them in the coffee shop, the rest of the world kind of tuned out around them. ]
unsever: (julia65)

[personal profile] unsever 2020-03-09 06:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He technically wasn’t wrong in his assumption, the guess going a happier direction than she’d originally intended. It’s enough to catch her off-guard, a rare blush creeping into cheeks. She was typically way more composed than this. Really.

The thought of being able to jump between dimensions appeals to her. They could create portals in their world between locations, could go to other planes of existence… Hm. ]


That actually seems feasible with the magic from my world, at least. There’d just have to be a way to stabilize it here so circumstances or a surge wouldn’t impact it and send someone off to a place they don’t want to be. [ There were so many pieces that went into a spell, it really could make things unpredictable and dangerous. And she wasn’t sure if there’d be rules placed on people who’d passed away in their own worlds to keep them from returning, that particular bit far beyond her understanding. Even if she’d like to throw a curveball at Hades and see how he likes her creating more chaos. There’s a pang of guilt over Persephone, even if she wasn’t the one in control, having to take a back seat to watch the horror show. She pushes that aside, though. Thinking it over with having Steve in her world. ]

I wouldn’t say no to you coming to visit. [ She leaves that open, meaning both here and in her own world. She doesn’t mention how much people might freak out if he just showed up, real and breathing in her world - that maybe it wouldn’t be the most relaxing retirement plan. ]
unsever: (easystreet-themagicians5x5-185)

[personal profile] unsever 2020-03-15 05:37 pm (UTC)(link)
I wouldn't say no to some company while I get frustrated at books and pieces of paper.

[ While she sometimes preferred to be a creature of solitude when it came to researching things, she never said no to company. Even if that company wasn't there to help her and had no idea what she was even doing. It was nice to be able to just ramble off a frustration that was going to make no sense to the other person and think out loud.

Smiling, she leans forward a little, propping her chin on her hand as she looks at him. ]


We could split the visiting time between our worlds.

[ She doesn't fess up with what she knows about him, but if he mentions it... She's got a few tricks up her sleeve to help him hide or disguise himself. ]
unsever: (julia49)

[personal profile] unsever 2020-03-16 12:47 am (UTC)(link)
[ An eyebrow arches as he makes the confession, not concerned - more intrigued. ]

Well, if you stick around in my world then for a little while, maybe I can help you. It's okay. I'm not going to judge you. [ Reaching forward to take his hand, her expression softens further. Trying to be more supportive than anything. ] Can I let you in on a little secret? [ Her voice drops to a whisper, to keep this between them as best she can. ]

Your story -- the story of your world is a fictional one in mine. It's okay. You're a good person with a good heart, Steve. Even if I had no idea about who you were, what you did on the ship for me is proof enough that whatever trouble you're in probably isn't your doing. Or isn't for a very good reason.

[ And to lighten things a little-- ] Besides, I'm a little harder to scare off. I can handle a bit of trouble.
unsever: (julia68)

[personal profile] unsever 2020-03-17 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
I assumed as much. About the story not telling us everything.

[ And then he's saying more and she gets it. Unnervingly so. Strange how their worlds can have a parallel about some things and yet be so different. ]

Well, I'm not sure how much of a comfort it is, but I doubt we're going to be leaving here anytime soon. Gives us all time to figure things out and fix our problems at home.

[ And because he'd opened up a little, the least she can do is return the favor. ]

Something similar, on a different scale, was happening back home. Except they were killing a group of the people who were different rather than just creating a registry. We've made some pretty big steps towards fixing it... But, it's hard to stop something that was put into motion like that. It's going to be a long and annoyingly complicated path, I think. [ Like convincing the moon to move and saving the Hedge Witches from dying. It's fine. ]

So, I get it. In a way. No one should be declared a weapon or deemed too dangerous to be around other people or restricted from access to knowledge that could help them - especially not by bureaucrats of any kind. Political or educational.

[ Rationally, she understands that with the changed circumstances of the 40th timeline, she needed to not go to Brakebills, but that didn't ease the sting of everything else that followed. The dangerous path she went down craving the one thing she'd been denied -- information and education on her magic. She'd watched it destroy other people and the stolen information used as a tool for exploitation rather than enlightenment. It had been brutal and honest and it's own form of an education on why certain things should be accessible to everyone. ]

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