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𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚛𝚘𝚐𝚎𝚛𝚜 ([personal profile] pursuitofcappiness) wrote2019-05-05 12:34 pm
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lednikovyy: IW (Now there's no point)

[personal profile] lednikovyy 2020-03-11 11:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[ When Bucky shows up, he's not exactly shocked to see that one of his threads seems to have lead directly to Steve. He smiles at it a little ruefully as he closes the door behind him. ]

Well look at that. Looks like we really are stuck with each other 'til the end of the line.

[ And it's not something Bucky's unhappy about. ]
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lednikovyy: cw (Give yourself to me)

[personal profile] lednikovyy 2020-03-13 02:24 am (UTC)(link)
You always know just what I need.

[ Bucky perches himself on the edge of a seat and watches the string connecting them with a sense of wonder. Maybe he shouldn't doubt the connection they have, but sometimes it's hard for Bucky not to question just about everything, even in the face of proof.

With a heavy sigh, he pulls his mother's ring out of his pocket and it feels like it weighs a million pounds to him. He can't help thinking about Skye and his mother and that fake life he'd had on the boat with his mother and sisters still alive. He'd even found Steve in it and taken to him instantly.
]
lednikovyy: CW (Here's what I've got to say)

[personal profile] lednikovyy 2020-03-17 12:48 am (UTC)(link)
I don't want to be that guy. I want to be me. That guy might have had some things I miss, but he was missing some pretty integral parts of my life.

[ He gives Steve a meaningful look, because hello Steve's just as much his family as his mother and sisters and he's actually still alive. ]

Also he was working with the mafia. Guess no one was around to keep him out of trouble when he was young by getting him into other trouble.
lednikovyy: CW (Another night and I'll see you)

[personal profile] lednikovyy 2020-03-18 05:18 am (UTC)(link)
I have no idea, but I got no interest in a life without you to keep me humble and perpetually worried.

[ He laughs and shoves Steve gently. ]

Look, I'm not that guy, Steve, and I've got no interest in being him. I just want to be a slightly less damaged version of me.
lednikovyy: cw (what your eyes want to see)

[personal profile] lednikovyy 2020-03-19 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
Well, she gave it back to me, didn't she?

[ He huffs and takes the coffee, blowing on it slowly. ]

Hell, if I ever propose to you like that, just smash me in the head with your shield until I forget, alright?
lednikovyy: IW (I don't care what they're going to say)

[personal profile] lednikovyy 2020-03-19 10:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks. I think I might've learned a lesson about sleeping with friends.

[ The joke doesn't keep his mood light for long, though, and his face drops to something more serious. ]

Not having the right memories like that and then coming back from it felt too much like after I got away from HYDRA, you know? Feels like I can handle a lot in this place just fine, but having my head messed with isn't easy.
lednikovyy: IW (Conceal)

[personal profile] lednikovyy 2020-03-22 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
I just don't like the idea of anything messing with my head. I've had enough of that for at least two lifetimes.

[ He can't quite make eye contact with Steve while he's talking about this. There's so much about what was done from him that he tries to protect Steve from knowing. Maybe it's pointless, but he's not exactly in a shape to protect Steve from much else these days. ]

I don't even like letting Shuri in there and she's helping me.
lednikovyy: IW (Can I sleep in my clothes?)

[personal profile] lednikovyy 2020-03-23 01:55 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe.

[ He tries to smile, but he can't quite get it up to his eyes. It's hard to believe he'll ever really be free of his ghosts. ]

Maybe this is just who I am now.
lednikovyy: CW (Not a footprint to be seen)

[personal profile] lednikovyy 2020-03-26 09:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Bucky doesn't have the heart to correct Steve. He's still a part of that Bucky, sure, but he's missing parts and what's left in their place are jagged edges. Steve always wants to see the best in people and Bucky knows he's no exception to that. Still, it stings a little to think that one day he's going to let Steve down. ]

It's not the 1940s anymore. We don't have to want the things we wanted back then.
lednikovyy: CW (Here's what I've got to say)

[personal profile] lednikovyy 2020-04-02 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, you're just as stubborn as ever.

[ He kicks Steve's foot gently, but when he smiles this time, there's something real to it that reaches his eyes. Steve's grown, but he's never changed. He's still the Steve Bucky's loved for decades and there's so much comfort in that for him. He's not even sure he could express it in words to Steve. ]

I'm just Bucky Barnes: Best Friend of Steve Rogers.
lednikovyy: CW (Only go so far)

[personal profile] lednikovyy 2020-04-03 09:27 pm (UTC)(link)
I only have room in my life for one best friend and you're it, punk.

[ And maybe it's just like that, but even though Bucky knows he's pretty broken, Steve at least makes him feel like he's been taped back together. He's a reminder of who Bucky is, or at least who he knows he wants to be. ]

I really don't know where I'd be without you.
lednikovyy: CW (Another night and I'll see you)

[personal profile] lednikovyy 2020-04-07 02:02 am (UTC)(link)
Hey, I could also be howling with Rip. She likes a good bark at the moon.

lednikovyy: CW (Only go so far)

[personal profile] lednikovyy 2020-04-07 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
I run. She kind of pads after me like a giant, lazy good-for-nothing.

[ He laughs, clearly full of love for the dog he's shared his bed with for over a year just about every night that he wasn't sharing it with Skye. ]

She's like the opposite of you when we were kids. Giant and menacing-looking and all she wants to do is nap.

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